How quickly I fall back into old habits, like not posting. It's not my intentions. I was re-reading some of my old stuff on H & the B's, and I can see a total difference in there and here, especially the early stuff. My voice, for lack of a better word, was so different. I was reflecting on that last night as I lay in bed trying to decide what to write about this morning. In the seconds before unconciousness, I realized that the problem or the conditions that are so different now, is time.
When I was a blogger in the beginning, I had an abundant amount of time, inordinant amounts people. At least 8hrs a day. In that time I could read other blogs, find inspiration for my own work. I think that's the missing ingrediant for my sense of gratification in writing. I don't have that kind of time to sit and think through my feelings about anything. I basically get up around 7am, sit down and start plunking and posting in time to be in the shower by 8:30 and out the door by 9am. I'm perpetually late to work because it takes me all that time to really get my thoughts out. It's 8am now...One whole hour to get to here. Okay, so maybe I didn't sit here that long, but I have to wake up, feed the bitches and kiss the mister goodbye before I ever get to sit down. The point is, I'm compressing my time here versus what I used to have to get it out.
Speaking of time...I'm going to have to go now. I'll be back later tonight to finish up, I hope.
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The shower is like my Fortress of Solitude where I do my best thinking. Half the time I come up with stuff SO much better than what actually gets posted.
I was just thinking about "my voice" today, too. I would love to wax poetic on all sorts of topics, but with work and the kids and the house, by the time I sit down to write, my mind is a blank from fatigue or racing with my list of things to do.
I'll tell you this, though, love. I'll keep coming back no matter what you have to say.
It must be reminisce/introspective time of year, because I've been reading some of my old posts too. And thinking, "geez, I used to have so much to say!" Maybe I just had more time to say it. There are only so many hours in the day, and if you don't have a desk job (where you can squeeze in blogging - I know they all do it!) it's hard to make the extra time it takes for this here hobby. :)
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