I've had a bit of a slow start today. Not to worry, I didn't just get up. I just had a slow ramp up, which in and of itself is not a bad thing really. I did get out this morning and take photo's in the rain. Love water droplet pictures, just wish I knew what I was doing. Trial and error are my token words for the day.
Yesterday we finished the drywall installation in the bedroom and I started mudding and taping. It's going to take a few applications to get out all the imperfections in our wall construction. It just feels good to have walls back in place peeerrrriod! Meanwhile, I ran out of mud, so the saga continues.
Like I said, slow start to the day, but all and all not a bad one. I had an appointment with the massage therapist today, she really worked me over. With all that has happened in the last week, my body is really paying for it. I'm one of those people that stores there stress and anger in their shoulders. Needless to say, my left shoulder has been very painfull for days. It's a real problem area for me and one of the reasons I started going in the first place. I had finally gotten it worked out recently, no more soreness or pain and then the big blow up had to happen. The tightness moved right back in.
Through out all of this 'stuff', from the fight to the make-up I haven't cried one bit. This is odd to me because I'm such a wanny babie (no really, it's true), not one tear, that is until today, when she started working on my jaw and neck area. The tension in there was massive. Unlocking that somehow seem to unlock my tears. Normally we talk through out the session, but today I couldn't say a word. All I could do was lay there and surrender to her hands and let them find the hurt and let the tears roll away.
6 comments:
First off, darlin, for not knowing what you're doing with water droplet pictures, that one is beautiful.
I'm glad you found some form of "relief" from some of the pain and sadness you've been carrying, love.
Hugs to you.
((HUGS))
Glad you found some relief...I don't think it is odd that you didn't cry. You were trying to 'hold it all together' in a very literal way, which is why all that stress balled up in your shoulders and why the tears were able to flow when she started working out that stress.
One foot in front of the other, Sweetie. You are doing great.
I'm glad you have a way to find that release.
I need to find me a Massage Therapist School that is looking for people to practice on. I could just like be rubbed all over and not have to buy anyone dinner.
CK: Thanks much for the complimentero. Pain and Sadness is exactly what she said to me afterwards too. She's my saint right now.
Sarah: Holding it all together is exactly what it was. It's because I don't trust him to catch me when I'm falling or not able to deal. Taking another step today.
Ern: Hey booboo kitten, thanks for the stop by. XOXO
Mr. B.: He!He! Always looking for the best of both worlds. No dinner = no happy ending.
Wow, what a wonderful thing that you have a place for that sort of release. People say that about yoga, too - that some poses will cause you to cry if you need it. I've never experienced that myself, but what an amazing thing.
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